Why am I so Angry?

Why am I so angry? Is it cause I'm frustrated with life, and how I've been dealt a full house of kings and another guy has a royal flush.

Well today started off well, I got a big sister now. After the ceremony of her asking me to be her little, and me saying "I Do," I headed out to Chinatown to go wish my Grandfather a Happy New Year because I love him.


Confetti was all over Chinatown because of the celebration. People of all races were there, brown, yellow, white, black, everyone. As I was walking around trying to make my way to the Oriental Palace, I started to ponder on why there were white people here at such a celebration, didn't they make the Chinese Exclusion act so that us Chinks, couldn't spread this yellow fever and take all their jobs. Is it our fault, my ancestors wanted to work hard, and find a better living so that they can provide for their families. White folk did bring Opium to China and make us useless for many years. So why are you in Chinatown, celebrating a tradition with people you never wanted in "your country"? But its not fair to think of it like that because White folk now could not control what their ancestors did. As I was slowly finding my way to the middle of Mott Street, I saw Ms. Asian New York.

Then I started thinking about the way people view Asian sexuality. Nowadays everyone is catching Yellow Fever. Yellow fever as urbandictionary.com defines is, when a male of non asian decent gains an attraction to Asians of the opposite sex and in their efforts go forth and try to obtain an Asian female. Or as many of these non asian males say, they have an Asian Fetish. What the hell does that mean, Asian Fetish, does that mean Asian girls are like animals or something. You know why they freaking like you? Because they want to put their freaking penis' in your tight little Asian Vagina. This may be a bias outlook so whatever, maybe because I am angry that I can't find myself a girl. But yea, so Non asian males, you make fun of my culture, you make fun of how we speak, you go Ching-Chong mak a hai, or whatever u say, and then say i have a small penis, so that you can make yourself feel better and more secure of your own manhood. When i finally got to the restaurant, I was really angry at other races. Then something added more fire to my fuel. I saw a bunch of White folk eating Dim Sum. Alright I know White folk love to go and experiment with different taste and such. I have no problem with that you are supporting my struggling Asian community. However when you come to eat, will you please have some freaking decency. It's Chinese New Year everything sound be happy and fun, and respectful. Your damn kids were playing with chopsticks. That is probably one of the most disrespectful things to do. The two kids were fighting over the chop sticks as if it were a toy or something. Then they dropped one into a glass of soda. That's really disrespectful. If your going to be in our restaurants be respectful. Again i am being a hypocrite because us Chinese people have no manners, and we are freaking rude pieces of sugar honey ice tea. Anyway, so I am going home, to wait for my big sis to come and pick me up. That was cool, getting to call her big sis haha.

Conclusion come upon by An Rong, Man is his own worst enemy. We try to see the differences in all of us, instead of trying to understand that we should see our similarities. We make laws the ban this and that because we are afraid of it and we do not truely understand it. The reason we are at war is because we loathe each other, instead of that we should help each other. I am probably considered the most racist person there is. I make fun of one race, then another, why because i am jealous of what they have. I am really just a lost sheep among the flock, questioning the reason for existence. When you look at it, the reason why the world has problems, is because we just look for differences, we never try to realize that we are all alike, and that at the end of the day the reason we are afraid of each other is because we don't understand each other. I guess it doesn't matter, everyones going to just say yea, we should do that, and do this and that, but since the beginning of time we have hated each other, so how are we going to stop that. I guess part of being human, is to learn to hate, flawed we are. Maybe the meaning to life is really to find a way to not hate, find a way to be able to love all that is on this earth. but you what, all i am is just an angry asian in the world filled with billions of people who i look like right?

You live to make money, soo that in the future you can enjoy yourself, but in the end you realize what's it all mean?

I'm Thinking About Her Again

Since I have come back to the city, I usually do a lot of photography in the city because I love this place.


I met up with my dear friend Jessica, and she told me she saw my Korean Love. My Korean Love is a beautiful girl I had fallen in love with the idea that I could love her. She's beautiful, she laughs at everything i say, she knows how to make me smile, i can talk to her for hours, i can just picture myself being with her, holding hands and running around in daisies. However, she is currently with someone. I had made a new years resolution to get over her, but whenever i least expect it, she pops up in my head.

The times i had spent with her, it makes me feel like i'm in a Woody Allen movie, and our song is Embraceable You (Take A), that the Charlie Parker Quinitet performed. Now I have the song playing over and over again in my itunes because it reminds me of her, and the way her and i would just compliment each other perfectly. However, me and her being together is facing its problems. I guess it was never meant to be, this movie won't end happy.

View From my Table Top,

Nothing to do really, in terms of school work... and I absolutely love it. Couldn't have come in a better time. My main nigga Long Wu and his lady friend is coming down to philly for the weekend, and im about to show them a good time. Plus on top of it football fam David the "illiterate Jamaican" and Jared Nesbit coming down too. Its going downnnnn...




but the thing on my mind is obsessions...
Everybody has obsessed over something. A girl. A guy. Sneakers. Food. Music. Whatever it was, you couldn't stop thinking about it, could you? It totally consumed you. Eventually though, the obsession passed and you resumed your normal life. But imagine if you were still obsessed with whatever the thing was. For some, their obsession never leaves them and it takes over their entire lives. Like a castle being attacked by an army, they are constantly besieged by the thoughts of their obsessions (which is an apt visual, incidentally, since the original meaning of "obsess" was to "besiege") They become completely possessed by whatever it is that they are obsessed with and, powerless before it, they give their lives over to it. Or is it just me???

Rude and Dumb Fucks

Alright so i don't have any new photos, thats because, i am here in what i would like to call the no photo zone. Besides the occasional dead squirrel. However i am going to be posting photos soon from my film rolls because I am going to learn to develop on thursday SCORE.

ok now time to explain the title of this post

I really hate ignorant people who do not give new things a try, or anything thats weird, and try to pretend they know something but they really don't.

I am currently taking a film class, and we watch movies that are domestic and foreign. Today we viewed Rashomon, a Japanese film from the 1950s, which displayed a story told from 4 points of views. The story is in feudal japan, and a bandit is trying to steal another mans wife, and the bandit is caught and he gives his side of his story, then the wife, the husband and a witnesses different perspectives. In the conclusion you learn what had truely happened, and a weird way to the story to end it off on. But basically, it was back to the age old conflict of good vs. evil. It seems that evil will win, but in the end somehow good rises above. Anyway the movie was probably popular back in the day. Also there is a different view to it than how a Western filmmaker would create it.

Well during the film i was trying to enjoy it as much as possible but occasionally i dosed off. But i noticed this Caucasian female sitting in front of me keep giving hand gestures as to say "WTF". She was being extremely rude, and ignorant. Many people did not understand it, however i did. Soo i was sitting with my bro Anton, and he didnt quite understand so being a good bro i explain how i perceived it. i explained the good and evil involved the use of symbology. The rude female overheard my conversation, soo when she was with her friends was mocking what i had said with the word symbology.

BITCH WAS FUCKING MOCKING ME. OK BITCH IF YOU CANT FUCKING UNDERSTAND A MOVIE ITS NOT MY FUCKING FAULT YOUR SOO RETARDED THAT YOU CAN'T UNDERSTAND SIMPLE THEMES BITCH.

So when i had heard her say this, i was like hey you know its fucking rude to talk shit about people when their standing right here? and she goes ooh sorry i didnt see you.

Ok your rude bitch so if i didnt say anything youd continue. Fuck you. your whats wrong with the world ignorant motherfuckers who don't give things a chance and are not willing to fucking understand shit.

Futhermore she was ugly, not only was she rude she was FUCKING UGLY.

yea soo there's my rant. if i see her tomorrow ima mock her "ooh im sorry" i will kick a bitch in her chest.

mad love to my bros jose, anton, and nemo, and his lady fish. mad love to the 3 1/2 chinamen crew. KINGSTON, i apologize forgive me

Truly a single Picture but a Thousand Words...

Do you see that picture above you? Do you understand what that means? No no, beyond the obvious, beyond the superficiality of the moment, beyond the glory of the moment. That picture has so much meaning, both physically and metaphorically which the individuals that rode the bandwagon all the way to the Superbowl will not understand. So for those of you that bleed the red, white, and big blue (no im not talking about patriotism, yes pun intended to the fullest) here is what the meaning is.


Look at the Lombardi Trophy, what do you see? I'll tell you what I see, I see fingerprints. You see them too right? But its the fingerprints of people that were not on the field. In fact there are fingerprints of a man that no longer works for the Giants. And his fingerprints are all over this win. He orchestrated this win. This is HIS win. He is the man who mortgaged our future who traded 2 first round picks, a second round pick, and a fourth round pick, to acquire a young, subdued, emotionless quarterback from Ole Miss. He also bared the criticism that came with every interception, every loss, every time the young quarterback refused to come up with a quotable. People said this young quarterback is not and will never be a leader of men. We had to watch A big armed quarterback from the same draft class win a Superbowl. We had to watch a brash and outspoken quarterback, from the same draft class and who we traded, go to the probowl. All this while our young quarterback get lambasted in the press.

But this man had a plan

He was criticized for drafting too many Defensive Ends. His predecessor, the legendary George Young, already drafted Michael Strahan. He then drafted an unproven talent from Troy University with a hard name to say. In fact, this young man with the difficult last name almost halted the trade talks when acquiring the young quarterback from Ole Miss because the Chargers wanted to include this talented Defensive End.

But this man had a plan

He then drafted another talented Defensive End from a horrible Notre Dame team. Why????? The Giants have needs, our Defensive Line is a strength why draft another one?




But this man had a plan.


Then in 2006 he drafted ANOTHER Defensive end, another young man with a hard name to pronounce from Boston College. You can never had enough pass rushers he said. Again more criticism came his way.

But this man had a plan.

Too protect that young quarterback from Ole Miss, he decided to feature an offensive line with a 5th round pick, two undrafted free agents, the coach's son-in-law, and a player that the other team that plays in the same stadium deemed not worth to re-sign.

But this man had a plan

He signed a Middle Linebacker that was not invited to the Draft Combine because he was too small to play in the NFL. You mean you want him to carry on the legacy of the legendary Giant's Linebacking that produced Harry Carson, Carl Banks, Lawrence Taylor, Sam Huff, and Jesse Armstead? Lunacy the critics said.

But this man had a plan

He signed a Wide Receiver that spent more time on the sidelines than on the field with attitude issues to boot. He will clash with the young unassuming quarterback the critics said. He will clash with Jeremey Shockey, the critics said. He will never stay healthy the critics said.

But this man had a plan

He signed two old men at cornerback. Their best days are behind them the critics said.

But this man had a plan.

Speaking of old men, he hired a man that would drive the players into the ground the critics said. After three seasons, "OFF WITH HIS HEAD!!!!" the crtics yelled. No, this man gave the old coach an extension.

All because this man had a plan


Then this man had the audacity to retire! With question surrounding the young unassuming quarterback from Ole Miss, with the Defense he constructed getting blown away, with the players about to start a mutiny against the old coach, he gave the reigns over to a under qualified man in Jerry Reese, that had no General Manager experience.

But this man had a plan

Then this under qualified man that took over, then hired a Defensive Coordinator that ran a scheme that we did not have the personnel for. You mean you want to blitz and put Corey Webster, and those old men in single, man coverage? Are you crazy, that will never work the critics said.

But this under qualified man also had a plan



And as of today the plan came full circle.


That young unassuming quarterback named, Eli Manning, is now the unquestioned leader of this team, not to mention a Superbowl MVP.
Those Defensive Ends he drafted put Tom Brady on the ground all game long not to mention all the other quarterbacks in the NFL. What is most scary is that Mathias Kiwanuka did not even play in the Superbowl.
That undersized Middle Linebacker, named Antonio Peirce is now the unquestioned leader of our defense.
Corey Webster shut down Joey Galloway, Terrell Owens, Greg Jennings, and Randy Moss respectively this postseason.
Those Old men turned out to be still pretty good. Sam Madison played well all season and proved to be a great mentor. R.W. Mcquarters had 3 interceptions this postseason.
That under whelming Offensive Line protected Eli Manning all season long and is uquestionably now our strength on Offense. Even with the loss of Tiki Barber we still had the 4th best rushing game in the league.
That receiver, Plaxico Burress, lived up to his reputation as being injury prone. He was hurt all season. Oh yea, but he caught 13 touchdowns including the game-winner in the Superbowl. He also lived up to his brashness. He predicted the victory during Media Week. He also walked that walked.
And what of that under qualified Jerry Reese you ask?
Oh that Defensive coordinator is now the hottest assistant in the league.
Not to mention his draft class of 2007.


He drafted Aaron Ross who played incredibly all season, showing incredible ball skills and toughness against the run.
Steve Smith looks to be the next Amani Toomer for the next 10 years.
Kevin Boss filled the incredible big shoes that the injury to Jeremey Shockey left vacant.
Michael Johnson flew across the field making big hits filling in for James Butler.
Ahmad Bradshaw made people say Tiki who?



And we have Tom Coughlin. When he came to this team he preached discipline, special teams, and toughness. We went from breaking the team record for penalties (with 127 in 206) to breaking the team record for least (with 77 in 2007). He got Jeff Feagles, the best directional punter ever to play, not to retire. Whoever returned for the Giants had succes whether it was Willie Ponder, Ahmad Bradshaw, or Dominick Hixon. And if there is anyone who questions this teams toughness from first stringer to the 52nd man on the roster please stand up. Anyone? No? I didnt think so...



And there was a player Tom Coughlin refused to cut.
He played played Kickoff Coverage.

He played Punt Coverage.

He blocked on Kickoff

He played on Punt Block

But he did not make an impact on what his position listed him as on the depth chart: Wide Receiver. Well, David Tyree made an impact as a receiver on Superbowl Sunday.



That is why that is my favorite picture from the superbowl. The Lombardi trophy with all those fingerprints on it. Because as a true Giants fan, more than anything we have Ernie Accorsi to thank. Somewhere, someplace Mr. Accorsi is smiling. He could say "I told you so", but he doesnt have to. He knew it would work all along. My favorite quote in hindsight is this, in an interview with the New York Times in March of 2006, when asked but his favorite deals and/or draft pick was:

“the Manning deal will turn out to be the best one because he is going to be a championship quarterback.”

He was the man with the plan
So let the bandwagon riders celebrate Michael Strahan riding off into the sunset.

Let the fair weather fans talk about Spagnuolo and his defensive schemes that stifled the vaunted Patriot Offense.

I'll turn a deaf ear to uneducated die hards who say they believed in Eli Manning since the beginning.

Because the man that gave all these players and coaches a chance was Ernie Accorsi.


Ernie Accorsi, the man with the plan.

World Champions

I can finally say it for a team that I am rooting for. Nineteen Years going on Twenty later this month, I can finally say it. We're World Champions. Nothing sounds sweeter than that, and it doesn't get any better than this. The IMperfect Giants with the Quarterback that could(n't), the coach who should have been fired two years ago, a former Franchise Running Back turning his back on the team because HE believed that you couldn't, FUCK THAT THE WHOLE WORLD KNEW that you couldn't but here we are, Monday morning February 4th, 2008. We are the World Champions.

View From My Table Top

"click on pic for larger view"

Still working on that thesis paper on "Chinese Calligraphy and its Relationship to Chinese Architecture"... and im starting to think I bit off way more than I can chew....


Reading a new book for Writing for Design class... its called "Nickel and Dime" by Barbara Ehrenreich. Its about this white lady (with a PhD) who attempts to experience the life of a working class individual by working "low class" jobs. I think the book is a total joke but whatever....


Discovered something new....
WaWa Ice Teas.... ABSOLUTE CRACK
shit is BANGIN'...
and of course Honey Bunches of Oats, no comment needed there.


Had some loose change and bought the 100th issue of XXL only because they had the Nas interview I wanted to read... it was ok. And the 100 greatest moments of hip-hop of course was pathetic. Just full of people stabbing and people dissing and people killing each other. Definitly was not worth the 4 bucks I spent on it. I was better off buying two more WaWa ice teas. At least the issue made me bang Illmatic for a good while.


Mets Fitted = We got Santana, we made him rich, and he will make us win. That's how it works right?


Giants Fitted = Do I have to say it??? Lets just say on April 4th we will have the 32nd pick of the draft ya diggggg?


Right now (besides Illmatic) im listening to Asheru's 2003 LP "Soon Come" it also features Blue Black. Asheru is an underground artist that is not your rapper's rapper. He has a master's degree and is also a teacher. He contributed to the Boondocks controversial episode "Return of the King" for which he won a Peabody Award the first rapper ever to do so. He's a part of the group Unspoken Heard, and has smooth flow and sharp lyrics. Cant say I know much more about him, I just started listening to him a couple months ago. His product is fire, thats for sure and I have a couple of his other albums but havent gotten around to listening to them. Stay up.